I always thought if i got certain things back in my life i would be happy. I missed my ex boyfried O! so bad i was crazy for him still am he had this rule about not dating the same girl twice but he did. were dating and yes im happy god am i happy. but now im scared to lose him and i hate feeling like that all the time. i feel like im always walking on thin ice. he doesn't know that but i do. and when i feel back into a corner i want to cut. but of course hes COMPLETELY against that. and that would cause me to lose but its so hard.